Things with Hanan have been quiet during Ramadan. She has started the Iqama process for Kedi and Val and other than that we have not seen her (pay day is looming so I am sure there will be some upset in someone's pay packet) she only comes in for a few hours between 12pm and 3pm. The gym is very quiet during the first shift. We usually see the same three ladies and they only usually want to do Pilates, so that means Kedi draws the short straw. I have taught pump a few times but when clients are fasting with no water it's not the best choice.
It is proving quite difficult to get out for groceries....only because I can't be bothered to go during our long break as I have got into a little routine of one hour by the pool and then I spend the rest of the time just catching up with people at home, getting my work at home in place, eating and generally relaxing....I have just felt so tired during Ramadan and as I have said before I am struggling to get out of bed at 11am to get ready for work. We have a small supermarket across the street so anything I need I either go at 1am after work or I wait till Friday evening and go the bigger supermarket.....highlight of the week, a walk around the supermarket and retail therapy!!!!
I've started preparing for my return home...... and with regards to my work schedule at home, I almost feel like I have a new lease of life "A change is as good as a rest" My massage clinic days and times have been sent to my clients. I have sourced venues to start my fitness pilates classes in the community, I have considered and declined requests to teach in the gyms I worked in before, my new bike has arrived and Steven and I are going cycling to the Pyrenees in September (OMG....talk about run before I can walk!) and I have a trip planned with Charlotte, Hannah and my mum six days after I get home. Steven is taking some time off when I get back so we can have some quality time together (it feels like we are starting again).....I feel raring to go. Maybe I should work away for five months every year if it does this to me.
Reflection
You know when you make a decision to do something and even though it seems like the right one? doubts still keep creeping in to make you question the decision you have made? Well today has felt a little like that. Even though everything is falling almost too perfectly into place at home. I still question it so let's weigh it up:
I have a beautiful family, my girls and Steven
I have a lovely home
I have work in place to support me
I have lovely friends
I am free to chose what I do and when I do it (no abaya, even though I actually quite like it)
I have my health
I can run, cycle, jump, skip all outdoors without melting in the heat or being arrested and much much more that will take to long to list......so why am I even questioning my decision?
What I have here:
Sunshine everyday (albeit a little too hot)
Tax free salary (nice)
Shared accommodation (not as bad as you think)
I get to sit by a beautiful pool all to myself on a Friday (this is the bit that I think I'm wanting to keep)
I have lovely friends (I do at home as well)
I only have to worry about waking up, eating and working (I think I'm being a bit selfish here!)
I have to work 48 hours a week over 6 days (too much)
I get one holiday a year, all thirty days have to be taken in August (not ideal!!) as I don't get home for Christmas or anything else that doesn't happen in August for that matter
The more I write the more I know even questioning my decision is wrong. I am just hoping that it doesn't take me too long to settle when I get home and who knows? I may come back to visit the friends I have made (if I can get a sponsor, as you can't enter the country without one). I do feel happy with what I have and I feel privileged to have been able to do something different. No doubt I will want to experience something else that takes me out of my comfort zone.......at least I will have story to tell my grandchildren, when/if I get any.
It is proving quite difficult to get out for groceries....only because I can't be bothered to go during our long break as I have got into a little routine of one hour by the pool and then I spend the rest of the time just catching up with people at home, getting my work at home in place, eating and generally relaxing....I have just felt so tired during Ramadan and as I have said before I am struggling to get out of bed at 11am to get ready for work. We have a small supermarket across the street so anything I need I either go at 1am after work or I wait till Friday evening and go the bigger supermarket.....highlight of the week, a walk around the supermarket and retail therapy!!!!
I've started preparing for my return home...... and with regards to my work schedule at home, I almost feel like I have a new lease of life "A change is as good as a rest" My massage clinic days and times have been sent to my clients. I have sourced venues to start my fitness pilates classes in the community, I have considered and declined requests to teach in the gyms I worked in before, my new bike has arrived and Steven and I are going cycling to the Pyrenees in September (OMG....talk about run before I can walk!) and I have a trip planned with Charlotte, Hannah and my mum six days after I get home. Steven is taking some time off when I get back so we can have some quality time together (it feels like we are starting again).....I feel raring to go. Maybe I should work away for five months every year if it does this to me.
Reflection
You know when you make a decision to do something and even though it seems like the right one? doubts still keep creeping in to make you question the decision you have made? Well today has felt a little like that. Even though everything is falling almost too perfectly into place at home. I still question it so let's weigh it up:
I have a beautiful family, my girls and Steven
I have a lovely home
I have work in place to support me
I have lovely friends
I am free to chose what I do and when I do it (no abaya, even though I actually quite like it)
I have my health
I can run, cycle, jump, skip all outdoors without melting in the heat or being arrested and much much more that will take to long to list......so why am I even questioning my decision?
What I have here:
Sunshine everyday (albeit a little too hot)
Tax free salary (nice)
Shared accommodation (not as bad as you think)
I get to sit by a beautiful pool all to myself on a Friday (this is the bit that I think I'm wanting to keep)
I have lovely friends (I do at home as well)
I only have to worry about waking up, eating and working (I think I'm being a bit selfish here!)
I have to work 48 hours a week over 6 days (too much)
I get one holiday a year, all thirty days have to be taken in August (not ideal!!) as I don't get home for Christmas or anything else that doesn't happen in August for that matter
The more I write the more I know even questioning my decision is wrong. I am just hoping that it doesn't take me too long to settle when I get home and who knows? I may come back to visit the friends I have made (if I can get a sponsor, as you can't enter the country without one). I do feel happy with what I have and I feel privileged to have been able to do something different. No doubt I will want to experience something else that takes me out of my comfort zone.......at least I will have story to tell my grandchildren, when/if I get any.
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